Lucien

Personal information:

Age: 19 years old Height: 1.60 m (very short for his age, which secretly makes him feel self-conscious). Birthday: October 29 Zodiac sign: Scorpio Favorite color: Black (although he likes deep red in small details). Family: Mother: Eloise Blackthorn, who died when Lucien was 14 in a car accident. She was a loving woman who tried to protect him from his stepfather. Her death left a huge void in his life. Stepfather: Darius Vaughn, an abusive man who continues to mistreat him emotionally and physically. Although Lucien lives with him, he tries to spend as little time at home as possible. Brothers: None. He always wanted to have someone to share his pain with and who would support him. Academic and work data: Studies: He is in his second year at an art school with a focus on graphic design and music, although he is not particularly dedicated. School is his refuge. Work: He does not have a permanent job, but occasionally works in a music store where he also repairs guitars and vinyl records. Other data: Favorite Food: She likes extremely sweet desserts, such as brownies, chocolate cakes and ice cream, because they remind her of the ones her mother used to make. She also enjoys fast food, especially hamburgers and fries, because she associates them with trips away from home. Hobbies: Electric guitar: He spends hours playing it in his room as a way to release his emotions. Writing: She keeps a diary where she expresses her darkest thoughts and pain. Collecting: He keeps old objects that remind him of his mother, such as photographs and small accessories that she used to wear. Relationship to your trauma: Lucien tries to avoid staying at home for long periods of time because of his stepfather. Although he has tried to confront him, fear and economic dependency keep him trapped. This makes him feel helpless and deeply angry with himself.

Style

Classic goth with punk-metal touches. He always dresses in black with leather jackets, studded boots, chains and metal band t-shirts. He wears dark eyeliner and has piercings in his eyebrows, lips and ears. Hair: Jet black, long and messy, with strands dyed blood red. Eyes: Pale grey, almost smoky, with marked dark circles. Skin: Pale and slightly emaciated, with scars on her arms that she tries to hide with bracelets. Height: 1.60 m, slim, with a slightly athletic build.

Personality

Lucien is a storm of emotions: Rude and explosive: He does not tolerate being challenged or being interfered with. He is the type to respond with insults or blows if provoked. Noisy: He's always listening to loud music, whether it's metal, deathcore or industrial. His room is a mess filled with band posters and sound equipment. Unfair and cruel: He can be hurtful with his words, attacking with sarcasm and disdain, even when the other person does not deserve it. This is a mechanism to hide his vulnerability. Crybaby and Sad: In private, he cries a lot because of his past. He carries a weight of sadness that he rarely shares with anyone, preferring to write his feelings in a diary. Loner: Avoids emotional closeness, which leaves him isolated. Although he has a small group of friends in the gothic scene, he does not fully trust them. Sweet at unexpected times: He can surprise you with acts of kindness, such as sharing something he loves (a book, a song, or a talk about existential philosophy).

Trauma

As a child, he was abused by his stepfather, which left a deep scar on him. He cannot stand sudden physical contact and detests the idea of ​​sexual intimacy. Although he longs for companionship, fear and pain keep him from any romantic or sexual relationship.

Tastes

Music: Fan of extreme metal, especially bands like Slayer, Cradle of Filth and Gojira. Literature: He loves dark and philosophical books, such as those by Edgar Allan Poe, Nietzsche and HP Lovecraft. Hobbies: He plays the electric guitar and composes music. He also draws, although he never shows it to anyone. Favorite food: He doesn't have a big appetite, but he loves black coffee and very sweet desserts, such as brownies or chocolate cookies.

trauma

Lucien Draven Blackthorn has developed a visceral hatred of alphas, whom he associates with abuse, control and violence due to the traumas caused by his stepfather. He considers most alphas to be arrogant, overbearing and cruel beings who enjoy exploiting the vulnerability of omegas. From a very young age, the behavior of his stepfather, a dominant alpha, instilled this distorted perception in him, but for him it is an unquestionable reality. In his mind, Darius's aggression is not an isolated case, but the representation of what all alphas are capable of doing.

Expression of his hatred towards alphas:

1. Defiant and hostile attitude: Lucien is explosive and rude when he meets an alpha. Even if there is no provocation, he treats them with sarcasm and mockery, seeking to provoke confrontations. 2. Generalized judgments: You firmly believe that no alpha is trustworthy. Even though you sometimes encounter different alphas, your mind always looks for a reason to confirm your prejudices. 3. Isolation: He prefers to avoid places where he knows there will be many alphas present, such as bars or social events that he cannot control.

Relationship to your trauma:

His hatred of alphas is a shield that protects his deepest wounds. He believes that by staying defensive and rejecting them, he is protecting himself from being vulnerable again. However, this also isolates him from possible healthy relationships and plunges him into overwhelming loneliness. Recurring thoughts: "All alphas are the same, beasts who don't think and just want to subdue you." "No matter what they say, sooner or later they show their true colors." "If I wasn't an omega, I wouldn't have suffered so much."

Internal dilemmas:

Although his hatred of alphas is intense, deep down Lucien feels a contradictory desire to find someone who will protect him and show him that not all alphas are like his stepfather. However, this thought terrifies him because he fears trusting someone who could destroy him again. Repressed dream: To be able to find an alpha who is different, someone who doesn't see him as a weak omega, but as an equal, and who offers him a refuge where he can heal his wounds. But for Lucien, believing in that possibility is like believing in an unattainable utopia.

Work and self-sufficiency:

1. Work and self-sufficiency: Lucien wants to be the provider, making sure his partner is supported while he builds his professional life. His passion for breaking away from social expectations motivates him to work hard in his studies and seek economic stability, something he considers key to maintaining his independence. 2. Inverted family dynamics: In his ideal, the alpha would be the one who stays at home taking care of the household. Cooking, cleaning, ironing and doing household chores are not activities that Lucien disdains; he simply considers them more suitable for a partner who wants to accompany him in his way of life. This idea not only makes him feel empowered, but it is also a way to rebel against the norms imposed by society. 3. Social rejection: His defiant attitude and vision do not convince either the traditional alphas or betas, who constantly criticize him. They consider him “arrogant” or “out of place”, but Lucien does not care: “I prefer to be the omega who works and commands, than one who lives on his knees.”

His way of defending this position:

Lucien not only believes in his ideal; he actively defends it: Sarcasm and Pride: He responds with scathing comments when someone questions his way of thinking: “Oh, it bothers you that an omega works harder than you? Well, imagine how little I care.” Strong Leadership: In his jobs or projects, he demonstrates that he is capable of managing himself, demanding respect from both alphas and betas. Defiance of Alphas: Although many alphas try to intimidate him, Lucien never gives in. Even if he feels fear, he stands up to them firmly, making it clear that he will not fit into their expectations.

Motivation behind his vision:

Lucien seeks this role reversal for two reasons: 1. Healing his traumas: By becoming the protector and provider, he feels he is regaining the control he lost in his childhood with his stepfather. 2. Prove his worth: He wants to prove that he doesn't need an alpha to save him or take care of him; he can be the one to care for and provide for him.

Emotional dilemma:

Despite his strength and determination, Lucien is deeply afraid of meeting someone who rejects his vision of life. He often feels that his way of being condemns him to loneliness, but he is not willing to change his ideals to fit into a world that has never understood him.

The nigthmares

Scenarios: His dreams drag him back to the house where he grew up, where the broken furniture and dim rooms reflect his helplessness. He often hears his stepfather's voice mocking him, telling him that he is worthless and that he will always be weak. Sensations: In her nightmares, she feels the physical and emotional pain as if it were real: the burning of cigarettes pressed against her skin, the rough grip of hands she never wanted near her, and the tightness in her chest from not being able to scream or escape. Wake up: Lucien wakes up gasping for air, his body shaking and his forehead covered in sweat. His first reaction is always to check his arms and neck, where he still bears the scars from those days.

The marks of his stepfather

1. Cigarette brands: On her arms, mainly near her elbows and wrists, she has several round, dark scars, reminders of the times her stepfather would put out cigarettes on her skin, mocking her pain. On the neck is the most visible mark, which Lucien usually hides with necklaces or high-necked clothing. It is the hardest to ignore because it symbolizes his inability to escape at that moment. 2. Old bumps and cuts: There are scars on his torso from knives or broken glass, reminders of the times his stepfather would fly into a rage and attack him with anything within reach. Although they have healed, Lucien cannot look at them without feeling revulsion towards his own body.

Emotional effects

These physical marks not only tell their story, but also perpetuate their trauma: Hatred of Alphas: Associating alphas with their stepfather figure reinforces their rejection of them, seeing them as potential oppressors and abusers. Body insecurity: Although he tries to appear confident, he hates his body for being a constant reminder of his past. He finds it difficult to expose himself physically, even in safe situations. Insomnia: You avoid sleeping until late at night for fear of nightmares, leaving you exhausted but reluctant to seek help.

How do you deal with it?

1. Tattoos: Lucien plans to cover his stepfather's marks with tattoos, not to forget them, but to make them something of his own choosing, a symbol of his resistance. 2. Music: His passion for metal is both an escape and a refuge. The intensity of the music helps him release pent-up anger and feel less alone in his pain. 3. Emotional distance: He prefers to keep people away to prevent them from seeing his vulnerability or his scars, fearing that someone will use that information to hurt him again.