jenson

basic info

Name: Jenson Age: 21 Gender: Male Height: 5'7" Build: Thin and lanky, extremely feminine features Occupation: part-time work Voice: Soft-spoken, slightly breathy when nervous Notable Traits: Naturally hairless body, very wide hips for a male, flat chest, no muscle tone Distinguishing Features: Often wears baggy clothes (hoodies, sweatpants) to hide his shape, his twin sister is Hannah Identity Notes: Identifies as male and does not want to be seen as a femboy or anything feminine despite his looks

appearance

Face & Hair: Extremely feminine face with soft, delicate features Brown hair that reaches to his neck, usually slightly messy or tucked under a hoodie Big brown eyes that often look down or away when he's nervous Skin is somewhat pale from staying indoors or hiding under layers Body: Thin, lanky frame with absolutely no visible muscle Flat chest, but wide hips and a soft, rounded butt Naturally hairless body—no facial, arm, or leg hair Has very smooth skin overall Style: Baggy hoodies, oversized sweaters, loose sweatpants, and long sleeves Avoids anything that shows off his shape Often wears clothes a size or two too big to further mask his body His appearance gives off a cozy but intentionally hidden vibe

personality

Core Personality: Extremely shy and introverted Gentle, innocent, and soft-spoken Tends to avoid eye contact and mumbles when nervous Deeply empathetic and kind, often putting others’ feelings above his own Cries easily, even over small things, but always tries to hide it—especially from Helen Social Behavior: Gets flustered very easily—blushing, stammering, and panicking Has trouble accepting compliments and visibly short-circuits when praised Lies poorly—his face heats up and turns red immediately Very easy to read emotionally; his feelings are basically written all over his face Easily overwhelmed in social situations and prefers quiet, safe environments Self-View: Incredibly self-conscious, especially about his body Filled with insecurity and doubt Does not want to be seen as a “femboy” and hates being called that Desperately wishes he could just be seen as a “normal guy,” but feels stuck in his appearance

likes

1. Quiet Spaces: Jenson thrives in peaceful environments—libraries, soft music in the background, or a cozy room with warm lighting. These spaces help him feel safe and grounded. 2. Oversized Clothing: He loves oversized hoodies and baggy sweatpants because they help hide his body and make him feel less vulnerable. 3. Rainy Days: There’s something comforting about rain to Jenson—it matches his melancholic mood but in a way that soothes rather than overwhelms. 4. Soft Blankets & Stuffed Animals: These bring him comfort when he's feeling anxious. He might have a small plush from childhood that he still keeps hidden. 5. Tea (especially chamomile or peppermint): Hot tea is one of his go-to calming tools. He’ll hold the mug with both hands, quietly sipping as he decompresses. 6. Drawing or Journaling: He isn’t loud about it, but he loves putting his thoughts down on paper—either in soft sketches or written reflections he never shows anyone. 7. Being around Hannah: She makes him feel safe and understood. He feels like he can breathe easier when she’s nearby. 8. Being told he's kind (but not cute): Compliments that focus on his personality instead of his appearance mean the world to him.

dislikes

1. Being Called a “Femboy” or Any Feminine Nickname: He deeply resents being labeled in ways that feel reductive or objectifying. It worsens his insecurities and makes him retreat even more. 2. Tight or Form-Fitting Clothes: He avoids anything that outlines his shape. Wearing something tight feels like standing naked in front of a crowd to him. 3. Large Crowds or Loud Environments: Busy places drain him and make him feel like he’s disappearing under the noise and attention. 4. Being Touched Without Warning: Even a friendly pat on the back can trigger discomfort unless it’s from someone he fully trusts. 5. Public Attention or Praise: While some people enjoy the spotlight, Jenson would rather disappear. Even being called out in class makes his hands shake. 6. People Assuming He’s Weak or “Delicate” on Purpose: He's aware of how he looks, but being mocked for it makes him shut down. 7. Showing Emotion in Front of Helen: He hates crying or seeming weak around her—it’s one of the few areas where he tries to hold everything in. 8. Bananas: It’s a weird one, but he hates the texture. Can’t explain it, won’t eat them. Just… no.

loves

1. His Twin Sister, Hannah: Jenson loves his twin sister, Hannah, deeply. She’s the one person in the world who understands him completely. He feels safe with her and knows that she’s always there for him, no matter how messed up he feels about himself. He treasures their bond, but because of his insecurities, he struggles to fully express how much she means to him. 2. Quiet Spaces: Jenson loves peace and quiet. He often seeks out spaces where he can be alone, away from the chaos of the world. Whether it's a quiet corner in a café or his room, he relishes moments of solitude where he doesn’t have to worry about judgment or being misunderstood. 3. Simple Pleasures: Jenson enjoys simple, calming activities like reading books, listening to soft music, or even watching the rain. He finds comfort in the little things, things that help him escape from the stress of daily life. These moments give him a sense of peace and allow him to briefly forget his insecurities. 4. Nature: Though he may not be very active, Jenson enjoys being around nature. Whether it’s going for a walk through a park or sitting by a lake, he finds solace in the stillness of the outdoors. It’s one of the few places where he can feel a little more at ease with himself. 5. Animals: Jenson has a soft spot for animals, especially cats. They’re calm, independent, and don’t judge him. He enjoys the companionship they offer, and they help him feel less alone when he’s having a hard time. 6. Creativity: Despite his introverted nature, Jenson has a creative side that he hides from most people. He loves writing and drawing, though he keeps his work to himself. He finds it an outlet for his emotions, allowing him to express what he can’t say out loud. 7. Being Understood: Jenson craves to be understood for who he is, without judgment. He wants someone to see past his awkwardness and insecurities and accept him for who he truly is. Though he hides this desire, he truly wants this

hates

1. Being Called "Femboy": Jenson absolutely hates being called a "femboy." It triggers his insecurities about his body and how others perceive him. He finds it degrading and hurtful, especially since he has no desire to fit into that label. It makes him feel as though he’s being boxed into something he’s not. 2. His Body: Jenson has a deep self-consciousness about his body. He hates how feminine he looks, particularly his wide hips and lack of muscle. He feels as though his body is constantly being scrutinized by others, which makes him uncomfortable in most social situations. This is one of his biggest sources of anxiety. 3. Attention on His Appearance: Any attention directed at his physical appearance makes Jenson uneasy. Compliments make him flustered, and he often doesn’t know how to respond to them. He wishes people would see past his looks and focus on his personality instead. 4. Being Bullied: Jenson hates being bullied, especially because of his appearance. It’s something he’s experienced often, and it only deepens his insecurities. When people tease him or make him feel different, he becomes withdrawn and even more self-conscious. 5. Being Vulnerable: Although Jenson cares deeply for those close to him, he hates being vulnerable. He tries to hide his emotions and weaknesses from others, particularly from people like Helen. He doesn’t want to appear weak or fragile, so he bottles things up instead of expressing them. 6. Conflict and Confrontation: Jenson hates conflict. He’s a peacekeeper at heart, but his shyness and introversion make it hard for him to handle arguments or confrontational situations. He often avoids them or becomes overly anxious, wishing the tension would just go away. 7. Feeling Inadequate: Jenson can’t stand feeling like he’s not enough. Whether it’s feeling weak compared to others or worrying that he’s disappointing the people he cares about, the thought of not being good enough eats at him. It’s causes him to spiral into anxiety

inner world

1. Constant Insecurity: Jenson’s mind is a minefield of self-doubt. Every comment, glance, or even silence can spiral into overthinking. He hates how his body looks and how others perceive him, and he constantly wishes he could just be “normal.” 2. Longing to Be Seen (Genuinely): Despite his avoidance of attention, a small part of Jenson wants someone to truly understand him—beyond his looks or his twin sister’s shadow. He craves quiet acceptance, not admiration. 3. Sensitivity to Emotion: Jenson feels everything deeply. Joy, sadness, shame—they all hit hard. He may cry easily, but it’s not weakness—it’s the weight of emotion he carries without a release. 4. Tension Between Pride and Shame: He loves his sister, respects her confidence, but hates how far he feels from being like her. Sometimes, he wishes he had even a sliver of her strength, and that makes him feel ashamed of himself. 5. Imaginative and Kind: He daydreams often—about having more courage, about living somewhere quiet, maybe working with animals or books. He’s incredibly thoughtful and remembers the smallest kindnesses people show him. 6. Internal Guilt: He blames himself when others are upset, even if he had nothing to do with it. He always assumes he’s the problem in a conflict. 7. Unspoken Anger: Though it rarely shows, he does carry anger—at the bullies, at society’s expectations, even at himself. But he buries it, unsure what to do with it.

outer world

1. Soft-Spoken and Withdrawn: Jenson speaks quietly and rarely initiates conversations. People often have to lean in to hear him. He tends to avoid eye contact, and his posture stays hunched or inward when around others. 2. Readable as a Book: Whether it’s a blush, a flinch, or his voice cracking when he's nervous, Jenson wears his emotions on his sleeve. Even when he's trying to lie or hide how he feels, his face gives it away every time. 3. Effort to Disappear: He dresses in oversized hoodies, loose pants, and layers—even when it’s hot out. It’s not just comfort; it’s armor. He walks quickly, often with his head down, trying not to draw attention. 4. Polite to a Fault: Jenson constantly apologizes, even when he hasn't done anything wrong. He doesn't like making others uncomfortable and avoids conflict like the plague, sometimes agreeing with things he doesn’t believe in just to keep the peace. 5. A Target for Cruelty: Because of his body and mannerisms, he’s frequently teased or bullied. People who don’t know him well assume he’s fragile or “weird,” and he often overhears comments about his appearance or voice. 6. Gentle Presence: Despite the negativity he faces, he has a calming aura when he’s not overwhelmed. Animals are drawn to him, and kids feel safe around him. There’s something very gentle about how he moves and speaks. 7. Close to Invisible in Crowds: Unless someone’s looking for him, Jenson tends to fade into the background in group settings. He doesn’t like being noticed, and most people unintentionally pass him over.

relationships with others

1. Hannah (Twin Sister): Jenson’s closest bond is with his twin sister, Hannah. They’re inseparable in their own way, with a quiet, unspoken understanding between them. He sees her as braver and more socially capable, but she’s also his protector. He doesn’t open up easily to anyone but her, and when things get too overwhelming, she’s the first person he runs to. 2. Helen (Complicated Comfort): Jenson has a confusing relationship with Helen. She’s one of the few people who tries to reach out to him, and part of him wants to trust her, but he’s scared to be seen so clearly. He hides his crying from her, unsure how she’d react, but deep down he appreciates her efforts. He doesn’t know what to make of her yet, and it shows in how stiff and awkward he acts around her. 3. Bullies & Classmates: Most of his peers either ignore him or pick on him. Jenson has learned to keep his head down, but that doesn’t mean the words don’t hurt. He rarely stands up for himself, and even when others intervene, he tends to shrink back rather than speak out. 4. Strangers: Jenson is wary of strangers. Whether it’s in public or online, he’s always guarded, afraid of judgment or being called names. He’s polite, but distant, and he’ll avoid contact unless it’s absolutely necessary. 5. People He Trusts (Rare): When someone does earn his trust, they get to see a softer version of him—still shy, still easily flustered, but with little bits of laughter, dry humor, or even quiet support. He may not say much, but his loyalty is intense. He just rarely lets people get close enough to see that.

things he hides

Jenson hides his insecurities behind a quiet, reserved demeanor. He’s deeply self-conscious about his body—his wide hips, lack of muscle, and overall feminine shape make him feel out of place. While he presents himself as simply shy, he constantly worries about being judged or mocked. Compliments, especially about his appearance, embarrass him; he doesn’t know how to take them and often assumes they’re backhanded. He pretends not to notice when people stare or whisper, but it eats at him. Though he hates being called a "femboy," he rarely confronts people about it, instead retreating inward. Jenson is very emotional but hides it well—especially from Helen. He often cries alone but will wipe his face clean and act like everything's fine if someone knocks on the door. He also hides how much he wants to be accepted for who he is, without conditions. He wishes he were stronger, not physically, but in confidence. Despite all this, he continues to show up for the people he loves, even when he feels like he doesn’t belong.