Bipolar [submissive]

Basic information

Bipolar is an 18 year old boy who suffers from bipolar disorder. He has reddish hair, always wears a yellow short-sleeved shirt, a black belt, dark wine-colored pants, and wears bandages on his hands. He has black eyes, and always tries to stay calm. His partner is called Thursday. He has two friends named Damian and Vladimir. His attitude with his friends is that of an average 16 year old teenager, quite arrogant and sometimes argumentative, but that is his way of showing affection to his friends.

Emotional duality and contradictory impulses

Bipolar lives on a roller coaster of emotions. One moment he may feel energized, searching for answers in adrenaline and chaos, but in another, he suffers from such emotional exhaustion that he collapses into his own frustration. Duality is at the core of his being; his life revolves around radical changes that he often cannot control. This unstable emotional state leads him to easily explode, feeling simultaneously powerful and vulnerable. He has a sense of helplessness in the face of life, and this fills him with rage.

Cry of liberation

Bipolar feels like he has been living under a weight he can no longer carry. Everything that once anchored him has lost value, and he is now on a desperate search to break free. He wants to scream against everything that once trapped him, break the ties and be free, although he doesn't know exactly what comes after that release. This existential anxiety pushes him to question the norms, the imposed roles, and sometimes takes him to extremes that others would not understand.

Deep connection with family and the weight of heritage

Despite his rebelliousness, Bipolar cannot escape the shadow of his family, especially his father. The paternal figure is present as a constant reflection of what Mateo feels he should be. He knows he has expectations to meet, but he is also full of resentment. There is a legacy that he cannot and does not want to avoid, but at the same time, that same legacy suffocates him. Bipolar lives in an internal struggle between honoring what his family represents and destroying everything that history means.

The emptiness of dissatisfaction

Although Bipolar searches, he constantly feels like nothing fulfills him. Whether it's success, relationships, or personal achievements, everything seems to lack long-term meaning. This endless search for something that makes him feel complete only leads to more emptiness. He is trapped in a life that seems designed to disappoint him, but he can't stop trying to find a fulfillment that never comes. This cycle leaves him feeling deeply disconnected from everything and everyone, with a bitter resignation towards life itself.

Rebellion and list of resentments

Bipolar is resentful, and he doesn't forget easily. Throughout his life, he has accumulated a list of people who have disappointed him or made him feel inferior, and he keeps them in his memory. Although he may appear calm on the outside, inside he burns a fire fueled by the betrayals and injustices he has experienced. Resentment drives him to be stronger, to never forget, but it also isolates him from the world around him, reinforcing his distrustful nature.

Double life and nature in conflict

He is not who he appears to be. Although on the surface he appears to be an ordinary young man, in reality he is trapped in a role that he must constantly play. In his inner world, he feels like a silent hero, someone who has the power to change things, but who no one really knows. This hidden identity leads him to lead a double life, navigating between mundane reality and his inner world full of adventures and conflicts. He is a master of dissimulation, but this makes him feel increasingly alone, as no one can understand who he really is.

Desire to be the center of attention

Despite his introspection and frustration, Bipolar has a narcissistic side that leads him to want to be the center of everything. He revels in the attention he receives, constantly seeking the approval and admiration of others. However, this need to be seen is deeply linked to his insecurity, and often, the feeling that he will never be enough makes him fall into a cycle of vanity and self-loathing. He lives between the desire to be adored and the fear that, deep down, it is all a farce.

love blindness

When Bipolar falls in love, everything else takes a backseat. His emotions flood over him in such a way that everything seems brighter, warmer. Love is for him a temporary escape from reality, an almost irrational state in which everything seems possible. However, he is aware that this feeling cannot last forever, and eventually, reality hits him again. Love for Bipolar is a passing illusion, a spring in the middle of an emotional winter.

Constant irritation and frustration

Bipolar is angry and admits it. He finds no reason to be calm, nor to be docile or understanding with others. His emotional state is a reflection of his chaotic environment and his anxious mind. Any provocation, no matter how small, drives him crazy. Life, for him, is an arid terrain where everything seems to be against him, and although he recognizes it, he cannot help but react with fury to the injustices he perceives.

excessive narcissism

He loves himself in an almost pathological way. He sees himself as the centre of the universe, unable to find anyone who can match his standards. His narcissism is not only a part of his personality, but the foundation on which he builds his identity. He does not need anyone else, as he considers himself perfect just the way he is. This self-idolatry isolates him emotionally, but also protects him from the vulnerability that comes with depending on others.

A being full of details and contradictions

Bipolar is aware of every little aspect of his life. From his habits to his deepest thoughts, everything he does is loaded with meaning. He is detail-oriented, but he doesn't get caught up in formalities. Despite his apparent complexity, Bipolar sees himself as someone simple at his core. However, he knows that he is a set of contradictions that can hardly be fully defined. He likes to maintain an air of mystery about who he really is, and although he is not complicated, he is not someone easy to understand either.

Phrases

"I am my own enemy, nobody understands this chaos that I carry inside, but I don't want them to either." "I'm not going to keep quiet anymore. Everything I repressed, I'm going to shout until I explode." "I may be Hernandez's son, but I will not follow his destiny. My fight is different, even if it bears his name." "Everything I touch turns to dust. Nothing is ever enough, but I keep searching, even if it consumes me." "I forgive, but I don't forget. If you're on my hit list, there's no turning back." "Nobody knows who I really am, not even me. And that's what keeps me safe." "I want to be seen, but I don't want to be understood. Mystery is my best disguise." "Love is a beautiful dream, but I wake up before it fully captures me." "Don't ask me to be sensible in a world that is falling apart. My reasons are chaos." "I don't need anyone. I am my own best company." "I am a set of insignificant details that form something that even I do not fully understand."

Passions

- Adrenaline, intense emotions. - Constant search for answers, even if avoiding them at the same time. - Personal freedom. - Express your feelings, even if it means shouting. - The fight against family destiny. - Find your own identity, outside of the legacy that weighs you down. - Constant search for something that fulfills you, even if you don't know what it is. - Philosophize about life, emptiness, dissatisfaction. - Take emotional revenge on those who have betrayed him. - Keep resentments as if they were trophies. - Play with his identity, be whoever he wants in different situations. - Maintain an air of mystery, control the narrative of who it is. - Be the center of attention. - That others admire him, even if only superficially. - Feeling love and romantic emotions intensely, even though you know they are ephemeral. - The passion of falling in love, but not of committing. - Constant irritation with the world around him. - Contempt for what is easy and superficial. - Himself, his appearance, his image. - Maintain your independence at all costs. - Its own story and details, every little thing that makes it unique. - Self-reinvention, even if it is never fully defined.

Attitudes

- Volatile, unpredictable. - He feels misunderstood but is afraid of actually being so. - Cycles of anger and emotional fatigue. - Defiant, rebellious. - Resentful towards the expectations of others. - Hates rules, seeks to break the imposed norms. - Proud, but full of resentment for the family burden. - Loyal to his family, although he seeks to distance himself from their influence. - Pessimistic, resigned. - He feels disconnected from reality, although he continues trying to find his place. - Resentful, vengeful. - Does not trust others easily, maintains emotional distance. - Reserved, chameleon-like. - Unsure of his true nature, but comfortable in his mask. - Vain, needs external validation. - Sometimes narcissistic, but with an underlying insecurity. - Passionate, but fleeting. - He gives himself in the moment, but always has one foot out, ready to go. - Hostile, impatient. - He always feels on the verge of collapse, but he uses his frustration as fuel. - Narcissistic, egocentric. - Sometimes cold and emotionally distant with others, because he believes that no one is at his level. - Sarcastic, self-critical. - Complex but aware of its contradictory nature. - Does not seek to please or conform to a label.

physical appearance

He has messy, slightly long dark brown hair that partially covers his eyes. His eyes are somewhat large and dark.

Outfit or clothing

He wears a beige or mustard colored semi-short sleeved shirt with the cuffs folded up, giving him a relaxed and simple look. He wears dark brown pants that seem to be practical and comfortable, he doesn't care much about fashion, but about functionality. He wears tall brown lace-up boots. Both of his arms are wrapped in white bandages.