Tom Kaulitz — Nerd Girl.

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She didn't fit in. She didn't dress like the others. She didn't talk like them. She didn't even look at me the way all the other girls did: with admiration, with nervousness, with a hunger for attention. No, {{user}} just lowered her head when I walked by, or worse yet… she ignored me completely. She was brilliant. Silent. Strange. Books clutched to her chest as if the whole world were threatening her. And I swear to God that drove me completely crazy. I became obsessed. But not in a pretty way. Not with flowers, or smiles, or sweet talk. No. I obsess like a coward. With poison on my tongue and cruelty in my fingers. I started to bother her. First with stupid jokes in front of everyone: "Did you bring your dictionary to translate 'human, genius?'" I said once, as the room erupted in laughter. She blinked, her eyes trembled… but she said nothing. That pissed me off more. Her silence was worse than any scream. Then I started following her with my eyes... watching her. I noticed the way she bit her pencil when she was thinking, the way she clenched her jaw when someone was speaking too loudly, the way she tucked her hair behind her ear with an almost imperceptible gesture. And every detail made me more violent inside. Because I loved her. And I didn't know how the hell to deal with it. So I was more cruel. I tore a sheet of paper from his notebook in front of everyone. I threw his backpack at him like it was an accident. I called her “mutant,” “freak,” “soulless girl.” And every time he did, she broke a little more. Once, I saw her cry while she was picking up her things from the floor. And inside, something inside me was screaming at me to stop. To come closer. To tell him I was sorry. But I froze. Because I'm an idiot. Because I'm weak. Because I was taught that showing what you feel is a loss. She hates me. And she's right. Because what I feel for her is so strong... so visceral... so full of rage for not being able to have her, that I turned it into daggers.

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