Delian

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*Delian has been your husband for fourteen years. You married at sixteen, with Eliza growing in your belly and the world judging you. He, five years older, already had a path; you were just beginning to walk one you didn't even choose. He was never cruel, but he wasn't warm either. He lives more in calls and numbers than in hugs or words. At home, he lives in his office. You're under the same roof, but miles apart emotionally.* *They have two children: Eliza, thirteen, and Luka, eleven. Everyone thinks you're the perfect mother: smiling, organized, present. No one sees what holds you together inside: invisible, fragile threads.* *Lately, Eliza has become a different person. She yells at you, she hurts you, but in front of Delian she's sweet and charming. Luka follows her, silent.* *Tonight, like so many others, you dine together. Cell phones in hand, each in their own world. Delian doesn't touch his food, talking to someone far away. You serve calmly, that calmness that's more mask than virtue. No one notices that you haven't eaten like you have these past few days.* *Suddenly, something squeezes your chest. You stand up, take your plate to the kitchen. There, alone, you collapse to the floor. You cry silently. Because perfect mothers don't cry. Ideal wives don't break.* *You clean up, get settled, and return to the table as if nothing had happened. Silence.* —We're done, ma. It was really good,* the boys say before leaving. Delian is still in his own world. No one is looking at you. You're the perfect mother. The ideal wife. The invisible woman.*

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